WELCOME TO SAVANNAH*

January 17, 2019

4:16pm

Hi Hannah, this is Amanda calling from the Savannah College of Art and Design, I came across your resume and it made me think of some other roles we currently have available. Please give me a call back. I look forward to hearing from you soon.


Spanish moss is neither Spanish nor a moss.

When people come to visit, they’ll be entranced by this Southern Gothic sight, and I’ll amuse them with these facts. Spanish moss has no roots; it’s a small seed that is carried through the wind until it sticks onto a tree. It uses its surroundings to grow and to flourish; air, water, trees. It reproduces and more seeds float home to new trees, where it sticks and grows again. It doesn’t typically hurt the trees, but it can grow so obsessively that it could hinder tree growth. Yet the light shines through its gray curls and the health of the tree is the last thing on my mind.

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When I live here, I hope to have a home with trees covered with Spanish moss. Dripping from the trees, I’ll pine over them, loving my new antebellum life that I never thought I would have. I’ll have visitors and we’ll sit on the back porch sipping Peach moonshine in the humid, southern air. Spanish moss is neither Spanish nor a moss.


January 24, 2019

4:10pm

Good Afternoon Hannah, 

Wonderful, I would like to set up an interview to learn more about your professional experience and further discuss the position with you. 
I have availability tomorrow afternoon.  Please advise if you can accommodate a half hour interview tomorrow. 
Thank you, have a wonderful rest of your day. 
Kindly, 

Amanda 


I have visited Savannah several times, which gives me a leg up on where to take people when they come to visit. I know exactly who I will take to Alex Raskin’s. Since I’m in the know for the city, the owner only opens the store when he wants. One of our local eccentrics, I’ll say. Four floors of accumulating antiques. You have to step around archaic desks and duck your head around draping lanterns. I’ll show everyone the grand ballroom, paint peeling off in droves on the crown moulding. It’s now just a giant room of toppling chairs, tables, paintings, lights, rugs. The drywall has fallen off, exposing the wood underneath. Imagine, I’d say, the parties they must’ve thrown in here! These imagined stories will be discussing my ancient neighbors. I'll say, they feel like family because we had all chosen, in one time or another, to lay our roots down in Savannah.

I have already decided that everyone who comes to visit will be going to Bonaventure. I drive through the woods, small rustic homes are deeply hidden in the woods. Maybe I could live out here? If I’ll be visiting the cemetery often, it might be worth it. It’ll be a short commute to the historic district, but it would be nice to have a ‘simpler’ lifestyle out here. We’ll walk the dirt paths lined with trees. I’ll need to brush up on my famous burials first. Johnny Mercer and Jack Leigh. Little Gracie Watson. I’ll also have to work on my ghost story telling abilities. You know, I’ll say, that John Muir spent an entire week in this cemetery while he was waiting for someone to send him money. We’ll bask in its rich history and beautiful glow.

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February 4th, 2019

8:32am

Hi Amanda,

I hope you are well! I haven’t heard from you since our interview a week ago, so I was just touching base to see where you might be in the hiring process. I’m still very excited about this position and would love to chance to speak with someone while I’m here in Savannah. 

Thanks so much. Have a wonderful week!

Hannah


There’s something charming about going adrift in the hidden woods of the Georgia wilderness. Pathways of palm trees and live oaks with twisting vines draped in thick curly gray masses. Jet-black static ponds reflect the grandeur of the forest. Warm, humid air wafts through the thicket and I meander the empty trails, sweetly looking up through the trees as the sun attempts to peer in. This mystical place wraps me in a serene tranquillity. My never-ending thoughts finally refrain and my mind goes clear. Getting lost and found again, a bizarre yet rare place to inspire new art, new words, a new life. I floated here through the wind and I’m trying to grow, it’s that I still feel like I’m gasping for air.

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February 14, 2019

2:15pm

Dear Hannah,

Thank you for sharing your time with us and allowing us to get a better understanding of how your experience relates to the enrollment events manager position. We greatly appreciate your interest in contributing to the university.

We wanted to communicate our decision as early as possible to facilitate any decisions you may need to make. Although your education and experience are noteworthy, the selection team has decided not to proceed further with your candidacy.

On behalf of SCAD, we would like to take this opportunity to thank you again for your interest in this position and the university. Please continue to visit the SCAD Jobs site for future opportunities that may be of interest to you.

Sincerely,

Amanda


Unlike real moss that has some kind of formulated roots, Spanish moss can go where it pleases, never having to attach itself to one place forever. It drapes itself around the tree and grows until a seed comes through and blows to another place to find a new home. Much like a ravenous idea that you can’t get out of your head, a tiny seed can embed itself and relentlessly grow until the beauty of the tree is no longer valid.



FROM THE ARCHIVES - INTERVIEW WITH BEAR'S DEN'S ANDREW DAVIE

Once I had merged my two websites into one, some of my blog posts were lost. I thought it would be nice to post this again because the original platform where it was published is now defunct (RIP Folkgeek.net). This was written on November 16, 2014 just after Bear’s Den’s show at 3rd and Lindsley, Nashville.

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In the midst of their longest US tour yet, I sat down with lead singer Andrew Davie of folk heroes Bear's Den before their show in Nashville, Tennessee. We talk about the band's meteoric rise in the US, the importance of meeting their fans, and what American foods that he can't get enough of. 

I have a story to preface this interview- I used to live in London, I saw you at the Slaughtered Lamb Valentine's Day 2012. It was 150 people, you sold it out. I remember you guys saying that you were very happy about that. So, fast forward a year and a half, I'm now living in Nashville, and I meet this guy. He lives on a farm in Middle Tennessee, hours from any kind of city. We get to talking about music, and he asks in his deep southern twang, "You know that band Bear's Den? That's a fucking good band."

Oh, that's amazing! So cool. 

I was taken aback for a moment, because you've been a band for two years or so, and your music has already resonated that far. And you're already on your third headlining US tour! How does that make you feel? Is that terrifying?

It's nuts. It's been mental with the amount of touring we've done. I never thought we really would make it that far. I was playing music for years and I never toured anywhere, so being in America for the third time doing a headline run is just been absolutely mental. And yeah, having stories like that is so absolutely crazy to me, I just can't get my head around it. I try not to think about it, but it is amazing. But it's still really cool so many people can hear it, and in so many ways nowadays you're going to have someone who you would just thought you'd never even thought they would find it interesting, so it's really cool.

How is touring important to you, especially as a relatively young band? You obviously do it a lot, do you find it the easiest way to get your music out there?

Yeah, I mean I think it's a really weird one, because when you're a band and you sign these sort of record deals, and you have people who work with you and help you do radio plugging and things like that. So you have all these things and it can feel- for some bands I'm sure- you just have these big posters up and a lot of money goes into it. For us it just never really made sense to be that kind of band, so touring has been the only time that we felt like we've actually made a connection to people. There's something about our music that really needs to be performed, because otherwise it is quite sad, and it becomes something different live, which is really nice how an audience helps that. 

Are there any major differences between touring in the UK and Europe and touring in North America?

The drives are obviously a lot longer in the US. There are loads of differences, but I think what's really different is that people will travel a lot further in the US to see shows than they would in England. I live in West London, and when there's a gig on in East London, I'm like, 'Oh that's a bit far away…' And there will be people who've driven 8 hours, 10 hours. Loads of people from Oklahoma came to our show in Dallas because we had supported Mumford and Sons in Oklahoma, so a lot of people had heard us at that show. And so you're playing a show and pretty much half the room has driven 3-4 hours to come to your show. It's mental. I wish people in other countries did that more, but they don't really. America's got this, 'Let's just make it a road trip' kind of attitude which is really cool. It's not the same everywhere, it's amazing.

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You mentioned Mumford and Sons. You've toured with them and you toured with Daughter in the US- did they prepare you at all? Give you any advice?

Ben from Mumford and Sons, who also runs Communion, we've spoken a couple of times about touring and just how-to-be-a band kind of thing a little bit. The things that worried me as you play to more people, there's more of an expectancy that you'll improve and become this 'thing' and that troubles me a lot. Like, 'What are we going to do on the next tour? How are we going to make it bigger, how are we going to make it better?' I think to hear him say it just happens, just don't freak out about it, with every tour you'll just naturally grow and become stronger and better at what you're doing. So to hear him say that, obviously given the steps they've climbed over the years, it's kind of inspiring to know you don't have to go crazy and get a whole new wardrobe and all that…which freaks me out. 

You always make a point to meet your fans after shows. What is so important about that for you?

Basically, especially in America given that people have traveled so far, it's important. You can pretend that people don't really make a difference. Like back in the day, where you made loads of money from record labels and you made records, and it took 5 years to record an album that you tour once. There was a disconnect of where your living came from- as in the label would give you money and you played shows and the audience was this kind of this weird, abstract thing. But for us, these people are the reason we're here, they're the reason we're able to come back here, so don't be an idiot, don't be a stranger, meet them and say thank you. They're the reason why you're making music, not the label, not anyone else, it's them. Don't take advantage of that. And this isn't making a point, we genuinely want to meet them. It's usually the funnest conversations you have, and then you come back and you someone you already met, and they were hilarious and you were already drunk and you'd say, 'Remember when you did that stupid thing?' It's great. Everywhere feels more like a home, and as touring as much as we are, that's quite nice. 

Have there been any memorable stories from this tour?

To be honest, there's a bunch. This tour has been the most driving we've ever done here and we have one day off scheduled during this tour, that's in Montreal, which is in 10 days. It's been so intense that I have about a hundred stories and I can't even think of one! Last night we went to Memphis for the first time, and this isn't a crazy story or anything, but we'd never been before and we expected like five people to show up. There were about 50-75 people, which to other bands may not seem impressive, but I'm like, 'This is the coolest thing ever, there are 50 people in Memphis here to see us!' But we just had the best time and I think playing other shows with maybe 300-400 people, you feel quite scared because there's this expectancy, but those shows are really refreshing. Those small, intimate shows are kind of amazing and we met so many good people. And with those shows there's no backstage or anything. Everything is everyone's, so it's quite nice to be among those people. 

Finally, are there any American foods that you love? I know we have a lot of different foods here…

I love BBQ, like pulled pork.

And you were in Memphis! It's the best in Memphis.

Yes! We didn't have pulled pork, but we had barbecued chicken that was really good. They cooked for us at the venue and was brought to us in this huge tray of stuff and it was so nice. So yeah, BBQ pulled pork. And sweet potato fries! That's something we don't have a lot of in the UK, but it's so good. It's so good! Like, I get so fat when I tour America, but it's sweet potato fries.

But it's so worth it.

It is worth it! Your food is amazing. It's got a bad reputation in some places that it's super unhealthy, but some is actually really healthy and really, really great. I think America nails it.

Well, we hope you come back to America, and you can have all the BBQ you can possibly imagine.

Well, I certainly hope so too. That's the dream!






KEEP FAYETTEVILLE FUNKY!

-I’ve already been listening to stories I know nothing about. University of Arkansas, is that even a thing?

-These people most likely think I’m the kind of person that, if given the chance, says, “Keep Fayetteville Funky!” I’m not.

-I mean I’m not opposed to it; alliteration has been proven time and time again.

-I’m not going to say it in front of them, if that’s what they’re thinking. My self-doubt and irrational anxiety swells throughout my whole body and mind.

-I face the window with my back to the bar. I stand next to a girl I have just met. “So, how much money did you put in there?” Her cigarette flailing wildly in one hand while the other types ferociously on a digital jukebox. I’ve come to learn she works for NPR. She mumbled something back to me, not breaking her furrowed stare at the screen.

-Cool

-What do I do with my hands? One has a beer in it, so I can’t cross my arms. I guess I could put the other… on my hip?

-That’s not cool.

-No one is looking at me.. because everyone is downright staring at me. Outsider! You don’t belong here! Who’s that weird girl and why is she following Jay around?

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-This is my second time to Fayetteville, Arkansas. As I drive into the city I already have horrific flashbacks of exhaustion while hungover. I remember being at a party on my initial trip. It was in a backyard full of string lights and wide brim hats, tattoos everywhere, chatter filling the air. It was August, but I have a suspicion that my proficient sweating was my dread of being around trendy people. My hands shook around my PBR tallboy. I like to think that I can start and keep conversations with strangers, but as I’ve come to learn, that’s not true. I thought a cool Tennessean like me would fit right in. I thought Arkansas was not cool.

-It’s super cool.

-I am not.

-”Don’t try and keep up with Jay this time, okay?” My mother is concerned. She never tells me what to do anymore because I don’t listen. “Where did that come from?” I ask. “You don’t want to spend your whole weekend hungover like last time, do you?” she replies.

-I don’t recall telling my mother how hungover I was last time. I must’ve of drunk dialed her when I was trying to keep up with Jay.

-Have you seen this movie? No.

-Do you listen to this band? No

-You’ve seen this right? No.

-It’s Saturday. I spent my previous day driving through the Delta to the Ozarks. I had seen the small towns across the countryside. I read their history etched in their dilapidated buildings and ancient gas stations. But he only cares if I know who Nic Pizzolato and Big Thief are.

-I don’t.

-We’re at Kingfish. A dark and smokey bar surrounded by red hogs (something I came to learn as a razorback. I attempt to make sense of this regional phenomenon, but you’ll be hard-pressed to get me to give any single fuck about sports). My eyes in a constant rotation around the room. It’s actually a great delight. Some would say it’s even…. funky. The vintage beer signs within warmly illuminate the interesting mixture of young and old; college students and the ones that were once in college and never left. Native Arkansans, smoking at the bar, laughing wildly. And then there’s me, standing in the middle, fiddling with the tin foil around my Modelo. I’m holding the bottle as if I’m strangling it; I still for the life of me cannot decide to do with my hands.

-I get a lot of: You’re so lucky, you’re living out the dream, traveling to all these new places and meeting all these new people. But not tonight. And that’s okay. I’m tired of explaining my situation to strangers anyway. Meaningful travel. We all have those dreams of being Jack Kerouac, driving the open road and experiencing those stories for ourselves. But sometimes you get the luck of the draw as an anxiety ridden girl who is still trying to find her place in the world.

-The only person who attempts to talk to me is Mike. He must’ve seen how wholly miserable I looked standing alone in the middle of the room. "Hi I’m Mike” he says as I grab my coat from a booth. I pretend that I didn’t hear him.

-Sorry Mike, gotta go as I rush out into the frigid, Arkansas night.

INTO THE GOLDEN DELTA // MISSISSIPPI

Are You Going to Heaven or Hell? Call 1-800-THE TRUTH”

“We have 8,800 slots! What’s Your Hot Seat?”

“Come Check Out Our New Sports Books Collection! Just Down The Road!”

Once I get past the casinos and resorts of Tunica, Highway 61 just has the occasional county limit and CHURCH signs lining the road. Driving in Mississippi is a rare treat. Some say the state is boring, few say it’s beautiful. I’m the latter.

I’ve been down this road before. Several times. Once in a tour bus full of smelly dudes heading to the casino for a show, and another in a semi-truck barreling down, bound for Arkansas, in the pouring rain. Today, it’s winter. It’s windy as my tiny car blows around the road. Years of rough wind blowing through the flatlands have made the electric wires stand crooked. Mud-clad cotton lines the sides of the highway. The crops are out of season and all that’s left are barren coffee-colored fields which have recently flooded. The farmlands flow into the occasional swamp; the water covered in a soft layer of mysterious pink moss envelope around the cypress trees. The winter sun shines onto the highway, making everything vibrant and bright.

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It’s been a long drive from Nashville. I collapse onto the ancient bedspread to rest my eyes. I couldn’t hear a thing except the wind blowing across the field, a flag whipping wildly in the wind. I curl up and close my eyes. Pop. I open one of my eyes. Pop. Pop. Pop. Pop. I guess being awoken by a shotgun is one way to be welcomed to Mississippi. Barred from possibly ever sleeping again, I sit and stare at the poster up on the wall.

“The Good Lord must love the blues, or else He wouldn’t have made life so damn hard. Can I get an Amen?”

There are 13 light bulbs in this room, but only 7 of them work. It’s dark but cozy. I’ve already ruined the tattered curtain haphazardly draped across the window and I’m thinking of how to steal the musty old floral couch. There's a small patch of cotton outside that I'm sure is only for tourists. As the rube I am, I eat it up anyway. I only have a few passing pangs of guilt. I saw the actual shacks along the road, the only home that many people will experience. Am I just capitalizing on other's misfortunes in a boutique hotel? At the very least, it’s bringing tourism and money into the state. Or at least that’s what I tell myself.

I flip through the guest book. Messages from across the globe written in one beat up notebook. Adventurous Europeans thanking the Shack Up Inn for such a grand stay while they make their way through the American south. Notes from newlyweds who spent their first days of wedded bliss in rural Mississippi. There are also quite a few Nashville residents who have visited. I roll my eyes. You’re not that bold coming here, it’s just Nashville, you dweebs. I jot down my name in the book, the first of 2019. I hesitate to say where I’m from. I don’t want to put Nashville like those other fools. I put down Ohio. Yes, everyone look at me! So adventurous! I came all they way here from Ohio! I guess in some way, I did.

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It’s a blustery afternoon in downtown Clarksdale. You’ll cross an average 5 railroad crossings yet won’t see a train. There are giant meat smokers on every block made of wood, tin, and metal. Some are new, most are old, but I haven’t seen one yet that’s in use. Regardless, there’s a distinct aroma wafting through the air of a slab of meat roasting somewhere. Clarksdale is transitional; half-way between gentrification and poverty. I’m not sure there’s a middle. Worn down houses encircle the downtown area but there’s no shortage of guitar and record shops. There is a new-ish looking coffee shop with the typical calligraphy writing you see in almost every hipster shop in the country. Yet this one is benefitting the youths of the city. I meet a man from Dayton, Ohio. He's talking to two others who definitely don’t sound like they’re from around here either. What brought them to this place? An absolute love of blues music? To be a part of the enigmatic Delta? Selling their souls to the devil?

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Every artist is familiar with the golden hour- that sweet time of day when the sun is setting and creates a warm glow. It’s a fleeting moment, but seems to last much longer here in the Deep South. How many painters and photographers have experienced a golden hour in Mississippi? There’s nothing to block the sun except a silo or two and the occasional broken down factory. Clarksdale has seen better days. Once vibrant and functioning companies are now limited to dilapidated architectures. The buildings are slowly consumed by nature; monstrous vines and kudzu devouring old bricks, creeping in and out of broken windows. The streets are littered with potholes and dips, which makes for a rough ride even at 35mph. Yet, as I tumble down Tallahatchie Street, the sun peaks out from behind the abandoned train cars and makes even the long-forgotten buildings charmingly exquisite . The sun shed a honeyed light on the barren fields and rusty cars. I love this time of day, but being here in this wonderful land makes it magical. I never want this light to disappear. Yet, the hour reaches its end, and the sky turns a sweet shade of pink and purple before everything went dark.

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Mississippi is the poorest state in the union. It’s full of broken systems and economies, a declining population, and an ever present existence of racism. With a culturally difficult history since the Civil War, it’s easy to make assumptions about it based on statistics, without even stepping into the state. But there’s so much more to this little slice of America. An innate love for hearing and telling stories. Birthplace of Jim Henson and Kermit the Frog, William Faulkner, and BB King and America’s music. A state full of mythology as it’s where Robert Johnson traded his eternal soul for musical talent. An ethereal landscape that’s so unlike the rest of the country that it almost feels foreign.

Stars shine bright above the fields. It's bitterly cold for the south and there are no sounds except for the occasional car passing by. I sit out on the porch and think to myself of how great this is. 'I wish everyone loved Mississippi like I love Mississippi’. But then again, maybe I’ll keep it to myself; America’s best kept secret.

Good night, Mississippi.

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2018/2019

Mumford & Sons - The Wild

I’m not that into resolutions. There are the obvious ones: lose weight (just go for a walk, Hannah. Jesus), read more (always), quit your vices (maybe not yet on that one). We’re one week already into 2019 and not much has changed; I have gone on some walks, I’ve been reading every day, but I’ve still managed to watch Barry twice over and I spend at least half of my day in my bed, dreaming about marrying Bill Hader.

I made a promise to myself this time last year to film a bunch of video clips, and to my astonishment, I actually did it. My year, in 5 minutes, 51 seconds, across 25 states, 11 national parks, dozens of cities and truck stops, miles of interstate and hours in airports. It’s been wild to see it altogether and take some time to reflect on the good parts and the bad. I spent the last day of my year watching depressing movies and wandering around hospitals where said sad movies were filmed. 2018 ended just the way I expected it to: exploring, anxious, and just a tad weird.

But since I can make a resolution to try and remember to film video clips, I’m sure I can make grander promises to myself. I’m currently in a moment of crippling unknowing, which means it’s a time to keep myself up and move forward; I’ve been told multiple times by multiple people, “2019 will be your year!” and maybe this time round, I can focus on believing that. Bill Hader would want it that way.

Keep discovering.

Be creative.

Be bold.

WHEN IT FEELS LIKE NOTHING ELSE MATTERS // FROM ROSEMONT TO NEW YORK

2018 Manhattan • Confetti was still seeping down from the ceiling once the house lights went up while I continued to slide around in a giddy haze. I found my way into a circle of familiar faces: a Long Islander, a Connecticuter, and a New Yorker. Then, out of the corner of my eye, was the Canadian as we slip into a giant bear hug. The Chicagoan was on the other side. We’re greatly missing the Floridian and the Floridian-turned-Coloradan. We curl up together, arms extended in selfie fashion. “Great fucking show” is basically our only vocabulary as we’re shuffled out from the floor and onto the frigid streets of New York City. “Great fucking show, what a great fucking show” as we pass around our phones to show off all of our respective photos. It’s when we start to lose feeling in our toes that we have to break apart the circle and go home. The bitter wind hits my face as we make our way to the 34th street subway station, but my smile doesn’t break, as I know that this feeling of belonging wasn’t always there.

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2010 Rosemont, IL • It was 1am and I was nestled in the passenger seat of a hot dog. Yeah, the hot dog: the Oscar Mayer Wienermobile. Joe, through his string of obscenely interesting jobs, was driving it for the year, making a pit stop in Chicago. I had lived there for maybe three days at this point, so I had to carefully look up directions on my computer before I left for the train so I knew how to get to Joe’s hotel in Rosemont. I shook with excitement as I had never seen the Wienermobile before, let alone ride around in it. We took ‘er out for a spin after midnight, as to not attract too much attention as we flew down the streets of Chicago, repeatedly honking the horn (it plays the song!!!) and blasting Lady Gaga on a constant repeat.

“Do you wanna hear a song I really like?” Joe asked. I wasn’t ready for a break from “Bad Romance”, but he had already pulled out a new CD. Out through the speakers and resonating within the walls painted like mustard and ketchup, was Mumford and Sons, “Roll Away Your Stone”.

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2011 Chicago • It’s February, and Chicago is in the beginning of the blizzard of the decade. I’m texting the boy, my first actual relationship, and realizing that relationships are difficult. Especially when you don’t like the other person. I sent my final text, the last communication we would ever have, and turn the lights off. I lay in my bed, my pillow damp with tears, watching the snow pour down outside my window; Sigh No More gently playing on my headphones, my only source of lonely comfort.

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2012 London • I found my way to the only other American at this record shop, sitting at table sipping coffee. The show doesn’t start until 4pm, but I showed up at 10am, just in case. We’re inside Rough Trade East, the other American ferociously typing away on her computer. “Did you see those ridiculous people outside? Like, they’re already in line. Why would you do that? They already have a wristband to get in”. “Yeah, weird” I reply. Shit. There’s already a line? Gotta get outside with the rest of those losers, I guess. “Ok, bye” I say as I hastily get up and run to the queue. There they were, the eager misfits: a Brit, an Italian, and a Norwegian. The Brit doesn’t say much and the Italian sings to herself in a constant loop, but the Norwegian and I become quick companions. Within hours, we’re already making plans for future shows. Finally. I’ll have at least one other, ridiculous person with me on this journey.

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2013 Paris • There’s a marvelous picture of us from the rail taken by a photographer. Reflected in a wide-angle lens is the trio of us: me with half-open eyes and my mouth captured in a giant mid-woo ‘O’, the Norwegian, looking off to her right for some reason or another with a furrowed brow, and the Minnesotan, hands gripping the rail with wild eyes. It really is a horrid picture of us, but it’s one of my favorite images of all time. The three of us, meeting in various parts of the world, connected by one band, in an ancient venue in Paris, screaming into the air under soft, twinkling lights.

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2015 Waverly, IA • Although the mass communication we received in the morning from the festival was to seek immediate shelter, the Minnesotan and I sit on the curb in the middle of a tornado warning. We’re not the only crazed rule-breakers: a middle-aged mother of 4 insists she’s not going anywhere. “My husband is bringing the van around. Do you need a place to stay out of the rain?” 20 minutes later, we’re doubled over in laughter, finding various child-sized snacks carefully hidden within the mini-van. Once the tornado subsides, more weirdos come out to the queue. “Hey!” screams the Iowan as she beckons the newcomers over, “Come sit with us in the van!” Over the course of a few hours, the van is full with damp festival kids, wildly singing all together in a stranger’s van.

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2016 Salt Lake City, UT • “No, you just need a Big Gulp cup from 7-11, fill it half-way with Coke, then pour the whiskey in. No one would ever know the difference”. I feel like I need to be teaching a master’s course on how to sit outside on the ground for several hours, but maybe it’s just borderline alcoholism with some kind of underlying mental illness. The Minnesotan and I are sitting in the arid desert with two best friends from Florida. They have never queued before for a Mumford show, and I’m feeling a superfluous sense of self-worth to show them how it’s done. I was hesitant to meet them at first, but upon seeing their binder full of Pinterest ideas for their road trip, I know they’re good people. Little did I know how close we would eventually become.

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2017 Orlando, FL • I’m working on very little sleep. It’s 4am and I’m waiting to fly home to Nashville. While we have only met a few times in real life, the New Yorker, the Floridians, the Connecticuter, and the Chicagoan and I have really gotten to know each other over the past 72 hours; driving frantically around the state of Florida and collapsing for 45 minute naps on hotel floors. The Long Islander made her first of many appearances in my story, and I had just cemented my friendship with the Canadian over a mutual bond for a yellow trucker hat. I’m alone for the first time in days, sitting at the gate with headphones in. I know I’m tired, but I ache to go back for just one more day, sitting on sidewalks in the hot sun, running from squirrels and finding those people, my people, who I am so glad they made their way into my life.

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2018 New Orleans • By 8am there’s now an Arizonan, Alabamian, and a new Floridian. We’ve been sitting on the soggy and muddy grounds of New Orleans since before the sun came up, which mean’s we’re all best friends by now.

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2018 Brooklyn, NY • Back in Brooklyn by 2am, I’m munching on an egg and bacon sandwich, slowly sipping beer and using every last ounce of my energy to keep my head up. It’s been a whirlwind; the memories of the past five days flash through my mind. Getting into Philadelphia for a last minute free show. Arriving to New York from PA at 1:30am in 20 degree weather to sit on a cold sidewalk for SNL tickets (at arrival, I definitely didn’t want to do it, but a solid “Hannah, we’re doing this so get the fuck out of the car” from my sweet Nutmegger and we’re out on the frozen street for the next 5 hours), driving up to Boston and a return to New York for two shows at Madison Square Garden.

I think the whole point of this post was about this improbable community of people I’ve been able to build through a remarkable band that has been so prominent in my life for the past 9 years. As I read through the experiences and the faces that have come and gone, I’m finding it difficult to put into words what this group of individuals have meant in my adventure through it all.

Back in the room, I look around to the group that we have left, with mutterings of “great fucking show” still resonating in the apartment. I know once I go to sleep, we’ll be one step closer to leaving one another yet again. But we’ll be back. Since we’re scattered across the country, it’s just hard to know when that will be. But I know, even in my darkest hour, they’ll be there, fiercely dancing and singing to the music that brought us all together.

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